This will be brief. But I think it is worth sharing. Lately, I’ve been having some difficulty discerning what God is trying to teach me during this season of life. Coming from a VERY filled life working as a teacher to a life that is STILL VERY filled, but in a much different way as I’m now working at home with a 16 month old, living in intentional community, and serving a rural church of really sweet people. It’s a wonderful place to be. But I can’t for the life of me figure out what exactly I’m supposed to be doing or learning.
Yes, the obvious, caring for the 16 month old is high up there on the priority list. And Lord knows I’m learning about myself and the developmental stages of a little boy every day. Not to mention the shaping that comes from intentional living (praying, eating, crying, laughing, living together) So, I guess I am doing and learning. A lot. But I have lately been feeling without purpose and with a lack of understanding for what God is teaching me in this season of life.
And then, after a kinda long text conversation with a friend and a some talking with my housemates, I am beginning to realize that I need a perspective shift. No, I don’t know what my perspective needs to be shifted to at the moment. But I do know that I am interested in being open and thankful for what God is teaching me. So, I’m not “cured”. Everything is not fixed. But I’m going to work towards looking everywhere for what God would have me to do and learn. Not just the places that I think I should look to be doing and learning.