I’m slowly beginning to accept that I am at a phase in my life where everything is a learning experience. Living in Todd this year has been full of different lessons, some harder than others. I have learned a lot about myself, things that I am good at as well as things that I need to work on. I messed up a lot, did some things well, was confused the majority of the time, but I also made good friends that I will never forget. I want to thank everyone that was involved with the Blackburn House and everyone I met this year. I know this year has been hard for everyone, and, as I was talking with my therapist this morning she said something that her father used to say to her: “Did you learn something? Then it is OK.” This gave me peace; the best thing that we can do with this year is to make sure that we have learned from it, that we can move forward. Life is just hard, timing is off sometimes and often (for me) it is hard to find the place where my ideals and hopes can meet the road and be turned into something real. We are all constantly learning, and I think that’s beautiful, I hope it never stops. I hope I can be constantly gracious with myself and those around me, allow myself and others the space needed to learn as well as the drive and expectation to ignore the fear that is holding us all back. I’m sure others have gotten a little farther down that road than I have, that others have learned better how to ignore fear, how to not be discouraged by messing up, how to find motivation within the self rather than from the outside, and I hope that someday I’ll get there too. But I want to thank everyone in Todd for being with me on this journey, the beginning is always rough (right?) I can’t wait to see where the Blackburn House goes and what amazing things will be accomplished in years to come, I know it will be better and different than anything any of us can imagine. I wish you all the best, and I want to leave you with this Franciscan Blessing:
May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart. Amen.
May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for justice, freedom and peace. Amen.
May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection,starvation and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain into joy. Amen.