The month of May has been insane. Lauren and Kristen graduated from ASU, my internship at the Wesley Foundation ended and I started working at the Todd General Store, we’ve all been out of town a lot more than usual AND we just got a new roommate! So, needless to say, we’ve begun summer with a big, hectic bang. It’s interesting trying to get everything back together and going after such a chaotic month both mentally and practically. Personally, I have been so all over the place this past month that honing back into our commitments to each other and to the community has been a challenge. I got so accustomed to frantically running between Todd and Boone that when I suddenly didn’t have to anymore I unknowingly found reasons to do so. Going from working in Boone and coming back to Todd for rest to working in Todd and living in Todd has left me not knowing what to do with myself much of the time. I actually have time to breathe, I don’t have to drive every day, I can garden a lot more, and yet I’m not taking advantage of the time I have. I’m relearning how to be where I am, which I don’t think I’ll ever fully comprehend. There is a beautiful quote by a Buddhist Monk and activist named Thich Nhat Hanh that has helped me in this pursuit:
“People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged in a miracle which we don’t even recognize: a blue sky, white clouds, green leaves, the black, curious eyes of a child — our own two eyes. All is a miracle.”
I think being able to be where I am and being content in that will start when I begin to notice the beauty in the small things that I am experiencing. We are so accustomed to going from one appointment to the next that we don’t notice the trip in between or the people that we see every day. This is my focus as I begin the summer, I can already feel a change in the beginning stages of thinking this way and I hope to continue in this.